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Because I do not typically write unless inspired to do so, this blook (blog-book) is evolving as I evolve and am able to grasp the story expressing through me. As such, I would like you to consider as you are reading that perhaps just as the process of this book, life is happening in reverse. Maybe our higher selves are retelling our story back to us and our lives are a collection of evidence of the participation in this story. In reading this blog I encourage you to begin to think more deeply about this life and your role in it. Ask yourself without judgement who you are and allow the answer to permeate through you. Truly engulf yourself in the question, but allow the answer to be said and heard within the deepest level of yourself, your true self and most of all remember to always breathe. I recently read that it is scientifically impossible to stress and breath deeply at the same time, whether this is true or not is inconsequential to the practice of deep breathing. When you breath, picture yourself inhaling white light and give yourself permission to exhale any old illusions of limitation and unforgiveness of yourself or others. I invite you to embark on this journey with me into the land of the unknown as it unfolds into the "always been." Now back to our regularly scheduled program...thank you.

Chapter II: Awakening

     I rested for what felt like an eternity or maybe just a lifetime.  Either way, I rested away the weight of the world that I left behind.  I slept away all of my past, shaded beneath this tree whose branches seemed to bend around me as if it were cradling me in its huge arms.  It was a tree that appeared to have never been touched by man or any creation of him.  This tree was pure, innocent and unscathed as if God had just given birth to the idea of it, as if it somehow was unexposed to the 'growing pains' of life.  In fact, everything in this place looked familiar, yet somehow very different.  The sun shined a warm white light onto life all around it; however, this was a different type of warmth.  What I am describing cannot be attributed to temperature or heat necessarily, but to the warmth of a love that knows no bounds...it simply exists so that life may continue.  This pure white light spread over the earth and created a golden brown surface of soft soil and flowers of colors for which I know no language to describe.  This was a magical place and I somehow felt a ONENESS with it that called me to take notice of its splendor, of its generosity to embody (in-body) beauty regardless of mans lack of vision to see it.  I took a photo of it in my mind and drifted back to sleep, hoping that it would still be there when I awakened but "hope" would be unnecessary for it followed me into my dreams.  I would never again truly experience the world as it were prior to this dream, or shall I say, awakening.

.....to be continued

Chapter I: One with the One

     I ran as fast as my physical body would allow, for it fought me every step of the way, ever since I accepted the choice to leave. I struggled to balance my body with my spirit from the moment of inception.  Thankfully I exercised my spirit enough to have the advantage in such a battle, thus I ran...leaving behind all things that meant nothing.  I dared not look back into the past that made it impossible for me to stay.  Suddenly, I stopped, not abruptly but softly and with deliberate conviction, I stopped.  I stopped in the place where I stood and I realized that I had finally arrived.  I arrived in the dead center of nowhere, yet everywhere that I needed to be. (Sigh) I took a deep and deliberate breath, breathing in the new air of my expanded vision.  I stood still, unmoved but moved by the path that led me here...to this place within my own consciousness.  I collapsed to my knees in utter gratitude weeping silently and then loudly until my voice become a whisper.  Falling into a deep peaceful sleep, I rested beneath a tree that appeared out of place above the warm earth that welcomed my presence.  While I slept I dreamed of the journey that brought me here...

The Fish's Reign