Chapter V: Ascension

     As I rested I fell into a deep sleep yet remained conscious within my state of observation.  In this state, I watched myself being born to the concept of the death that awaited my physical presence.  I watched within a blink of an eye as my my previous life seemed to unfold before me.  A lifetime of living was condensed into a Milli second of awakening.  The pain of helplessness passed through me as I struggled to navigate through a life that did not recognize me.  I saw myself as a child and then as a woman, attempting to become the innocence I had once been.  I could hear my parents' voices as they called for me to "treat everyone as I wanted to be treated," and to "always try my best."  I could feel the love radiating through their voices and into my listening.  These two phrases would shape my existence, both condemning me and releasing me depending on which path I chose to embody.

Chapter IV: Surrender

   I let my-self go and surrendered to the nature of what I had become or had always been.  This distinction between the two would become my new existence ...somewhere between what I thought myself to be and what I truly was.  For if Nature was my mother and God was my father, than I had become a child reborn to the truth of it all.  In still silence I allowed my thoughts to drift until they became absent from my body, yet everywhere present.  I became the ground on which I stood, aware of its great service to carry all of life, so that we may stand on the troughs of evolution.  Refusing to let us fall, I fell into a state of gratitude and remained there, resting in my awakening.

Chapter III: Omni-present:

Floating somewhere above the earth, before gravity and beyond time, I felt her...gripping my spine, protruding deeply into the earth's core.  My mind could not wrap around the roots of the tree under which I slept nor could I comprehend that it had somehow become me, but indeed it had.  It had become my very living and I had become the expression of its selfless giving.  I could literally feel the soil saturating my attention, holding firm to my growing.  I could even feel the leaves that no longer grew from me, yet would never be apart from me.  I watched the leaves blow away carrying expressions of me to far reaches of the land that housed its intentions.

to be continued...